Happy New Year, I guess. No no, Happy New Year with sincerity. I hope this is a happy new year for all of us, because last year was awful. I know for some part of it I thought I was happy and everything was fine and dandy but I think that was just a phase of delusion I was going through.

I’m trying to think of any good things that happened last year and all I can think of is: my friends that were there for me when things at uni got tough, my excellent English literature Dr. and oh yes the Smashing Pumpkins dvd and cd, but that was pretty sad as well because it’s cemented their break up, but we’re supposed to be all happy and excited about Zwan. Sorry but it’s not quite the same.

Many people think that ‘oh the Smashing Pumpkins’; it’s just a band why the hell are you soooooo obsessed? I’ll tell you why, because it’s about the only band that really speaks to us and we can relate to, so a big screw you all to the people who think we’re just weirdoes because we love a band so much. It’s not as much the band but more what they represent; it’s the concept that speaks to us and that’s why we love them so much.

Anyway I’m sick of all those small-minded people anyway who think it’s abnormal to feel so strongly about music or any form of art. I’d like to thank one person in particular person who seems to be loyal to this site (though I’m not asking anyone to pledge their allegiance to The Realms Of Verity it’s just nice to know that someone reads this damn thing once in a while), you know who you are, and no our crap radios never play the Smashing Pumpkins because we’ve all sold out as well, I guess that means that our country’s radios stations have also joined the rest of the world in becoming an emblem of commercialism.

Oh yes, the good news for this year is that Steps have split up; you remember that all smiling, all dancing, all gimmicky pop trash group who never sang an ounce of substance??? Yes they’ve gone yay yay.

I have to say, my feelings for the new year haven’t started on a positive note, can’t help feeling depressed, maybe I will once I’ve achieved something, like completed my second novel, maybe had my first published, at this moment in time having a few poems published in a hot shot magazine would also be great. But I am trying and will you keep you all posted on my success, well let’s hope it’s success I have to report.

Right now, at this very moment in time I am listening to ‘Hurt’ by Nine Inch Nails, another great band

I know I haven’t been updating as regularly as I should, but over the new year I had the flu real bad and I just wasn’t able to get out of bed, but I’m now back again with a slight vengeance, I’m actually feeling good creatively, so I guess that’s something to be positive about. I feel good about my second novel, I’d rather not say much about it yet except that I think it will be good, touch wood. I know I shouldn’t blow my own trumpet but all I’m saying is that I feel good about it, I’m really enjoying the writing process. My last novel, ‘Human Sufferance’ was very bleak, it was pretty depressing but I felt strongly about it. This is a lot more upbeat, because there’s a lot of comedy in there as well, so it’s real fun. Well I think I’ve written a sufficient amount, I’ll see you all soon.

Oh yeah, I’ve updated my site in case none of you have noticed, there’s a new essay up called Society and there are two new pages, wow. First there’s a The Smashing Pumpkins page yay where you can buy cds they’re all live tracks unless otherwise stated and there are demos and re-mixes as well. The second page is Do Not Enter it’s all self-explanatory. Tiddily doo.